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Well! I survived my friend's wedding and this morning, BRUNCH! It's a seafoo brunch so i already know I'm probably going to have about a dozen, or less, shrimp and call it good, but oh man, am I looking forward to it! I already called ahead and asked about pricing, as the brunch is very expensive and I do not want my friend to have to swallow the whole cost of me eating, as I can hardly eat anything! I surely can't brunch out! But this morning, and stepping on the scale, even after having a small glass of wine yesterday, and going down another half a pound, well, I'm ecstatic! :)
I also did my measurements and I'm down seven inches. At least it's starting to come off my abdomen and legs now, not just my boobs and arms! It's just a great day all the way around! I still feel odd talking about my surgery to some people, only because they look at me and think, "well, you have a LOOOONG WAY TO GO", BUT THAT'S OKAY! I know I have 90+ pounds to go to hit my goal, but I know it will happen and so I try not to think about it too much.
I am also feeling a little better about myself. I just looked at a photo from New Year's Eve, eight months ago, and HOLY FAT! My face is almost competely round! I just have to show you...
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I sure hope YOU can see the difference! And that's only 29 pounds! JUST WAIT!
So, three days into the new school year... I've been at the same weight and I'm getting hungry, so I don't know if I haven't been eating enough protein, substantial protein, or what. I had tuna for dinner at 5pm and so far I'm not hungry, so I guess I need to make sure I eat more of that kind of stuff and lay off the yogurt, so much. I felt like I couldn't be satisfied today when it came to food, and perhaps it's because I forget to eat until it's too late. Anyway, I'll be watching to make sure I stay full longer with my protein bars and tuna for lunch tomorrow. Perhaps that will make a difference. Other than that I'm a little disappointed that I haven't lost anything in the past four days. I was going down about 1/2 pound every other day, up until two days ago, but the MONTHLY DEMON was visiting so perhaps that had something to do with it.
I've also got this terrible metallic taste in my mouth that is really bugging me. It starts right about every afternoon and continues through the night. It tastes awful! I tried chewing gum, but it was too spicy/hot. I know, I'm a wimp. And I'm also not supopsed to chew gum, so geez. I guess I could look into some sugar free mints. I don't know, but it really is a yucky taste. I cannot wait each night to chew my vitamin! At least IT tastes great!
Okay, so it's been a while. I know, but tis the season! No, I don't mean the holidays, I mean that school has begun! The great news is that I'm down 27 pounds to start it off! I am still doing well, although I'm not sure I can keep eating the same things I have been. I long to be able to branch out, but when school is in session it's convenience first, so I bought a turkey chili to try, since soup was my biggest thing last year, quick and easy. I also need to make sure I find some protein bars to tide me over during my mid meals. But other than that, I feel great! And, to start a new school year, that's a good thing. :)
Not sure where this is coming from, but I feel crappy. I started out okay, had my egg beaters for breakfast, then went to my nutrition class. Afterward I got my first fill, not too bad, actually. I was freaking myself out a little but overall it wasn't bad, and now I know where my port is! It's not like any shot, because when you get a shot, they pierce the skin, deliver the goods, and they are out of there. With a fill, they pierce the skin, then have to poke, hard, into the port, which is made of a rather hard substance, apparently. The same on the way out, it almost has to be yanked. Now, I don't mean to freak anyone out, it really was not bad at all, it was just, I don't know, odd. A very strange feeling. But it all went well and it's over. This time.
She told me I have the Realize Band that is an "11", not the "9" they used to have. I'm not sure if that means it holds 11 ccs of fluid or what, and I was too freaked out to ask, but today she gave me 4 and a half ccs, which is quite a bit, apparently. It kind of freaked me out to get so much, but another gal came out after I did and she got that much, too. The good news is, if it's too much, the nurse at Dr. Snyder's office lives just a few miles from me and she said if it's an emergency she can unfill right at her house. Whew! But, so far so good. I had my liquids this afternoon, which is all I should have for 4-6 hours. Then I had some yogurt, which was also fine, at least so far. I'll try some cottage cheese when I get home from dropping off our foster kitty at her new home. I"ll miss her. :-(
I can still feel a little bit where she poked me, but honestly, it was easier than giving blood, and I'm really used to that. I won't be afraid to do it again. And that's a good thing. But back to my funk. I feel down. I am not sure where it's coming from, and I can't really explain what's happening, but I guess I'll reflect on it and come back to it. Later.
It's great to have so much support. Especially close to home. My whole family has been so supportive and I have no complaints there, but I will say that my support group through Dr. Snyder's office has to be one of the best support groups ever! Last night I met with them for the second time. They meet every other Monday each month, and I'm going to work hard to make each and every meeting. They don't meet until 7pm, and it's only an hour and a half long, but I have met so many great people, who are supportive and amazingly helpful! I'm all about not reinventing the wheel, so I sit, listen, then ask gobs of questions. I wonder if they are used to that? It seems the members have all been going there for years, and I'm the newbie, but that's okay. I can tell when I ask a question they are all anxious to help me through this and that's a great feeling.
Down another half a pound, even though I have been feeling more hunger. I was advised last night to start eating more solid proteins. They say yogurt is great, but it's not very filling and won't stay for very long, but I am not about to give it up, so I will just have to make sure my main meals are going to be much more filling and work on a little more variety. Still logging my meals, although I did fail to log the very small handful of trail mix yesterday. I guess it goes to prove I don't have to kill myself and do without, but taking it moderately easy on myself is the best way to go. That salty sweet treat was just the ticket, and I was back on track immediately following. Plan your cheats, they say. Hey, at least it was cheesecake or something! :) I'M STILL DOING GREAT!
Yeah, I guess the honeymoon phase is over. I'm hungry. Well, I feel hunger more often now, but my head hunger is beginning to get the best of me. Last night, sitting at a dinner with Claire, all the stuff on the table was beckoning to me. I gave in and ate two very small cubes of cheddar cheese and two very small coin-sized ham pieces. Nothing I hadn't had before, but it was just before dinner so I knew dinner was coming, (my burger), but I couldn't stand to sit there and not eat. Then, afterward, we went to a bar to see some family. I walked in with my bottle of water, and sat there. I didn't really know anyone, but watched as everyone else drank a nice beer...and today, I'm craving. And that's not good. I guess I better figure out how to handle this...and quick.
Sounds almost ludicrous to say, seeing as I'm already on summer break, but I've been working three solid six hour days at the store and I'm beat! I didn't sleep well last night, either, but hopefully I can make up for that tonight. I decided, because I am not seeing a great big difference in pants size, that I would take some measurements to attest to my 20.5 pound loss thus far. Well, I'm down 3.5 inches as well! The psychologist said that I should keep good documentation about weight and measurements because of my inability to SEE any difference. Do I feel any different? Nope. Well, I can tell my boobs shrank. hehehe Great, just the place I wanted to start losing first! But hey, it will all even out...proportionately... HOPEFULLY!
I decided that I wasn't getting enough protein in, since I ran out of cottage cheese, so I made myself a protein shake for breakfast this morning and I'M STUFFED! Nothing too fancy, just skim milk and vanilla protein, and it tasted great! I can't wait to add some fruit to it! I looked, but no bananas, which was fine. It did the trick and I'm half way to my protein intake for today, which is a great head start! I may have to do that every morning!
I have started thinking about my school schedule and wondering how I'm going to do the every two to three hour meals. I mean, I teach for two hours in the morning, then have planning, so that will work, but then I have three hours in the afternoon, which I guess would work too after I make sure I eat lunch before they come back. I am going to have to really be careful, because I was so used to getting so busy and not eating...can't make that mistake anymore but it will take great discipline! Not like when I was at the store and missing a meal. Bad girl!
It's still strange to be so focused on food in such a different way. Before, I would think about what I was going to eat and what I was hungry for. Now, I think about what to eat, but not what I'm hungry for, rather what I can have! I can't wait until my nutrition expands, but then I think it's going to be even harder. How can I get protein in when the list expands? I'm going to have to make sure I make a plan, and I'm sure my nutrition class will help a lot.
Time to get on with my day!
I loaded a new ticker on my blog...watch that scale go down, down, down!
Just as my ticker is going down, it disappears! I've still not figure out the best way to post that on this blog, but anyway, I'M DOWN 20 LBS!!! Almost four weeks out and I'm down 20 pounds! That leaves 100 pesky pounds to go! And although that seems like a huge amount, well, let's face it, it is, and I also don't expect to be able to keep up a five pound a week average weight loss, I feel SUPER GREAT!!!! I will feel better when I start feeling it in my clothing size! I was truly hoping to be able to get into a smaller size by the time school was back in, that only gives me two weeks, and I just wonder if another ten pounds by then is reasonable, or will actually show.
I'm not getting discouraged, no, not in the least, but I really was hoping that the "ten pounds is a dress size" would hold true this time, as it has before. Apparently it's all losing from my boobs! As I do feel I'm ready for a smaller bra size, but not quite yet. Don't get me wrong, I do feel the difference in my tops I'm wearing, as far as them becoming more loose, my jeans, not so much, but with another 100 pounds to go, and I haven't even started exercising heavily yet, because I can't for another two weeks, well, who knows. I guess losing the weight is only part of this adventure!
Guess I better go figure out how to get my ticker back on this blog...
The past few days I don't know what it is, but I always feel full. Even now, I look at the clock, it's been two hours, it's almost lunch time, and I'm stuffed! I had my egg beaters, cheese, and ham for breakfast, which has been fine, but it's two hours later and I still feel it! Maybe it's the water, but who knows. It's quite odd eating only 1/2 cup of food per meal and even eating when I'm not that hungry. Still hitting about 600 calories a day, and making my protein minimum of 65 grams per day.
Yesterday I had to start taking iron pills. My dizziness and vertigo was getting the best of me so I definitely had to do something. I think they are too big, though, but we'll try it again today and see if I tolerate it. It's always an adventure when I try a new food or anything solid. Yesterday I had a burger (93% lean). It was so small! I laughed when Steve finished making them, but boy was it enough!
In three weeks I'm going to be able to graduate to solid foods, pretty much be normal. Whatever that looks like! I'm also going to be able to participate more fully in working out, although I don't know what that might look like yet. I honestly need to get into a regular workout routine, but I'm not sure when I can! As usual I've over-scheduled myself, with school getting back in session in another few weeks and my part time job. If I can't fit exercise in now, how will I then? I still would love to join a gym, I think it might give me more accountability, but we don't have the money for that quite yet.
So, three weeks post op, down 19 pounds...I'm definitely not complaining.
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