Wow...here we go!

Minus 44.5 and counting! Sometimes it gets a little discouraging when people don't notice, but what I have to realize is that the people around me have seen me at this weight before! MANY TIMES! Thus the surgery!

I have about 21 pounds to go to be in the 100's again, and that just seems unimaginable. I am trying to remember the last time I was at this weight. I know it's been a long while, but now, I'll reach it before Christmas! How do I know? Well, I am just hoping it all keeps going the way it has, although I've had my weeks where it seems nothing happens. Lucky for me, (dripping with sarcasm), it also appears I'm going through menopause. Lovely. Hot flashes, night sweats, and honestly, it's really not that bad, but I'm very happy it's not affecting my weight loss. I have a group meeting tonight that I'm going to attend because they say it's a good idea, but honestly? I feel like I'm on track, doing well, and still losing, so I don't really feel like I need to go, but I will. Maybe I can be an inspiration to others, like the gal who has been banded for over a year only to lose 25 pounds. I would kill myself if that happened to me, not really, but maybe one of these meetings she'll be inspirated by someone, or something. I want to be there to see that.

If I average my weight loss, 44.5 pounds over a 14 week period comes to darn near 3 pounds a week. If I keep that up, that means by New Year's, I can be down another 18 pounds, if I only lose two per week! HOLY CRAP! Of course I want to be down 25 by then, so I have a firm goal in mind...I said firm...hehehehe

I still have yet to get the inspiration to exercise. I need to pull this Wii Fit out and start it once a day. I keep saying, I'll do it in the morning, then morning comes and I say, I'll do it in the evening...and so on, and so forth. And still, here it is, more than three months past my surgery and I have yet to do squat, or should I say squats. hehehe I guess I justify it and say that as long as I'm still losing, why exercise, but then I see the roll of my belly, and the sag of my arms. That will all be fine while it's winter and everything is covered, but by next summer, I hope to be at goal, and then, well, better get moving now!

In the meantime, I'm very excited to be going down as well as I am, and feeling no real deprivation. I had a very tiny piece of cake today, and felt as though I was totally cheating, but yesterday, when the cake was flying around, and Saturday, when all the cupcakes were being made, no worries. I do know that it's more head hunger than anything, that makes me crave. I find I want to eat more when I'm sitting downstairs, than when I'm away from the t.v. but the t.v. isn't even on, so it's something about logisitics, I fear. hehehe Good thing we don't have lots of junk in the house, but actually, we kind of do. I'm okay, though. Two glasses of wine on Saturday night, one yesterday, and really? I'm still losing, so good for me.

GOAL #1 MET!!!!

HOORAY!!!! I DID IT! 40 pounds gone forever! Wow! I can't tell you what a glorious morning it was to wake up and realize I finally reached my first goal! Next? -26 to get the heck OUT OF THE 200S FOREVER!

And to celebrate, I'm going to go buy a new pair of slacks! Or maybe jeans... MAYBE BOTH!

So very close!

I'm so close to -40 pounds I can feel it! Once again I'm fighting a cold, which I was hoping would not happen as much as it has in the past. Actually, I think it is more my asthma rearing its ugly head, so I have been using my albuterol again, at least twice a day. The other negative side effect of this cough is that sometimes I get to coughing so much, my port hurts. It feels like the muscle is pulling and it burns like crazy! Another day or two of this and I'll email my doctor to see if she has any extra strength super powered cough medicine I can take at night. I was up at 3am today coughing up a lung. Not fun for me, and also for Steve, who has to get up at 5am each day. I even bought a new humidifier last night, which was working fabulously, but apparently not helping much.

I actually went shopping over the weekend! yay! I got a couple pair of slacks for work, size 18, which is only a size below what I was wearing, so I'm a little disappointed, however one pair I wore yesterday is already big! So I guess I could venture into size 16s in some styles, but I'll wait. No sense in feeling like a sausage quite yet! hehehe And I can't wear things that are too tight at the waist because it presses on my port and hurts, so I'll just ease on down the sizes as I'm supposed to. Besides, sizes are so freakin' wierd! I have 18s at home that I can't fit into yet, and then I go buy three pair and one fits great, the other is a bit large, and I haven't tried the other pair on yet. So I'm not putting much stock in sizes at this point, I just feel good knowing I'm headed down the weight loss path, and I'm loving it! Now to get rid of this cough!

a little over 1/4 of the way there!

Wow...down 35 pounds, although I'll admit I thought it would be more by now. I haven't done my measurements in a while, though, so I think I may try to do that this weekend. I need all the encouragement I can get. I'm not getting disappointed or anything, I'm still very motivated and happy to be missing that 35 pounds, but as usual, I want more. Guess I should be used to that by now.

I did wear a brand new pair of jeans to school today, but ended up unbuttoning them within the first two class periods. When I wear things that are too tight, my port hurts, so I guess I'll just have to wait to wear them correctly, when I lose about ten more pounds. But that's ok. I have time...at least I hope so!

I actually got to enjoy sushi last weekend, which was a real treat. It was probably the cheapest sushi date we've ever had! I ate all of two gyoza dumplings, two ebi (shrimp) without the rice, and three pieces of California Roll, which I savored as long as I could. I am so happy it all worked out well, so I know I can enjoy that again sometime. Oh, and did I mention the rice wine? heheheh Yeah, couldn't have sushi without it!

I'm back to my part time job this weekend. Only four hours on Sunday, but it's been over a month and a half. We'll see, but I don't anticipate any problems. I just have to get back into the grind. Sometimes I feel like $7/hour isn't enough, but it gets me off my butt and I enjoy catching up with people and seeing other teachers. I just hope we are busy and the time goes by quickly.

That's about it for now. I'm not writing in this as often as I know I should, but now that school started...well, who has time to do anything!