Wow...here we go!

Minus 44.5 and counting! Sometimes it gets a little discouraging when people don't notice, but what I have to realize is that the people around me have seen me at this weight before! MANY TIMES! Thus the surgery!

I have about 21 pounds to go to be in the 100's again, and that just seems unimaginable. I am trying to remember the last time I was at this weight. I know it's been a long while, but now, I'll reach it before Christmas! How do I know? Well, I am just hoping it all keeps going the way it has, although I've had my weeks where it seems nothing happens. Lucky for me, (dripping with sarcasm), it also appears I'm going through menopause. Lovely. Hot flashes, night sweats, and honestly, it's really not that bad, but I'm very happy it's not affecting my weight loss. I have a group meeting tonight that I'm going to attend because they say it's a good idea, but honestly? I feel like I'm on track, doing well, and still losing, so I don't really feel like I need to go, but I will. Maybe I can be an inspiration to others, like the gal who has been banded for over a year only to lose 25 pounds. I would kill myself if that happened to me, not really, but maybe one of these meetings she'll be inspirated by someone, or something. I want to be there to see that.

If I average my weight loss, 44.5 pounds over a 14 week period comes to darn near 3 pounds a week. If I keep that up, that means by New Year's, I can be down another 18 pounds, if I only lose two per week! HOLY CRAP! Of course I want to be down 25 by then, so I have a firm goal in mind...I said firm...hehehehe

I still have yet to get the inspiration to exercise. I need to pull this Wii Fit out and start it once a day. I keep saying, I'll do it in the morning, then morning comes and I say, I'll do it in the evening...and so on, and so forth. And still, here it is, more than three months past my surgery and I have yet to do squat, or should I say squats. hehehe I guess I justify it and say that as long as I'm still losing, why exercise, but then I see the roll of my belly, and the sag of my arms. That will all be fine while it's winter and everything is covered, but by next summer, I hope to be at goal, and then, well, better get moving now!

In the meantime, I'm very excited to be going down as well as I am, and feeling no real deprivation. I had a very tiny piece of cake today, and felt as though I was totally cheating, but yesterday, when the cake was flying around, and Saturday, when all the cupcakes were being made, no worries. I do know that it's more head hunger than anything, that makes me crave. I find I want to eat more when I'm sitting downstairs, than when I'm away from the t.v. but the t.v. isn't even on, so it's something about logisitics, I fear. hehehe Good thing we don't have lots of junk in the house, but actually, we kind of do. I'm okay, though. Two glasses of wine on Saturday night, one yesterday, and really? I'm still losing, so good for me.