Sigh

I was ready. I started at the gym, which is great. I was pretty ambitious and decided that I was going to do an aqua class tomorrow morning. High hopes. I'm feeling so fat and disgusting right now I can't even sleep. I feel like I've been at a stand still, and worse than that, I'm up three pounds!? I just can't figure that part out, though. I haven't been eating more, actually I've been eating less. I started working out three days ago, and I'm up three pounds? Arghhh. I guess after 55 pounds I'm having a not so great feeling about myself, even after losing all that weight. I feel like I need to throw myself into something, like working out every day, or something!!!! I'm not giving up, by any means, I am just feeling like something is not working and I'm not quite sure what that might be.