New Life

I am still ready...even after not having anything to eat all day. I never, ever imagined how much I would miss food. Plus clear liquids are not that fun, which was all today, but for three weeks without being able to have food. I know I won't feel much like it anyway, but after today I never even realized how often I think about food.

I had to sit in an all day training today and watch everyone eat their huge lunches, everything from a salmon salad to a swiss mushroom burger...and then, in the afternoon, cookies...not your ordinary, every day cookies, gourmet cookies...and then, as I was driving home, I almost instinctively turned into a Burger King for a snack...of course I didn't. But the subconscious thoughts going through my mind were primarily about food!? I don't know if it's just because my stomach had been growling for about two hours, on and off, and it is again by the way, or if my lifestyle had just been that food driven. I guess I'm about to find out.

Tonight I get to shower with that horribly smelly soap they gave me. Then, as if that won't be fun enough, I get to shower in it, again, at 5am to do it all over again! I just hope my shampoo covers the stench of that soap, and I'm still sitting here wondering if it will turn my skin brown! Hey, if it does, maybe I'll use it as tanner for the rest of this summer...NOT! hehehe

Man, am I grumpy! I sure hope my hubby doesn't have to put up with this for too long! At least tomorrow I hope to be pretty doped up afterward, so I'm not too worried about that, although I do need to probably get up and walk now and again. With all the liquids, it will more than likely be the urge to pee that will get me up. hehehe

I don't think I'm really scared, although I will admit to a few death thoughts. I keep joking that watch me be the one to croak since I have virtually no medical issues and they think it's a slam dunk. hehehehe But hey, it's not in my plan so I will just not think too much about that anymore. I do know this will all be worth it, and I have an amazing network to fall back on. So...this is probably the last time you will hear from me until I'm well enough to get on and update this. So, on a wing and a prayer...my prayers and yours.