TWO DAYS TO GO!

Two days pre-op. I have my pre-op appt. today and Delicia is going along. I actually get to see my surgeon again, only the second time, actually the third if you count the seminar. But after that I get all my pre-op stuff done and then...wait...

With the bank screw-up I don't have any money to buy the liquid protein I need to have tomorrow, but I'm sure things will work out okay. I don't get paid until Friday, but we got Steve's check deposited, now we just have to wait for it to clear and I can get my necessities for the hospital, pre surgical diet, and post surgical diet. I think I'm pretty ready, although I began thinking today that I really don't have anything very comfy to wear to and from the hospital. Jeans are probably not a great idea, and I'll need something loose fitting to make sure it doesn't aggravate my incision site. I'm still really hoping for only one of those, but up to three I guess would be okay.

I spend over an hour last night looking at before and after photos of hundreds of people on obesity.com. I know it will be a slow process, but with my past successes, I know this will also be a success. I have so many people pulling for me. Excited that I've made this decision and anxious for it to be done, the surgery I mean. Everyone gets so scared when it comes to surgery, and I guess I'm thinking, it's laproscopic, what can go wrong? Well, maybe I shouldn't be so confident, but I am. I'm thinking more like a cake walk, myself. No diet pun intended. hehehehe

Even my boss at my new part time job is excited for me. I started thinking this morning, would I have hired my fat butt to do this type of work? Unfortunately, I answered that I would not have, and that perhaps me telling her in the interview about my upcoming surgery was what helped me get that job. It's very interesting when you look at life through the eyes of a fat person, knowing there is something more inside, but not getting the respect or credit you deserve. But that's all about to change, isn't it. And the first person I am excited to respect me, and give me credit, is ME!