Sunday, already?

Yup, you guessed it, everything is going great! Which is why I haven't written. I did have my first "full and uncomfortable" feeling yesterday at work, though. Which I thought was well worth blogging about. I have been really erring on the side of caution when it comes to eating my 1/2 cup, and taking my time doing so. I never want to throw up, and I never want to eat too fast and feel that horrible feeling, but yesterday, well, it happened. No, not the throw up part, I'm still good there, but the too full feeling that stuck with me for at least an hour was really terrible. And OBVIOUS! I worked my first full day since my surgery, which was great. Some people think retail is an easy job, but I'm here to tell you, it's more work than any desk job I ever had, and pays less than half! Anyway, I do love working at the store, but was more than worried about working a full seven hour day. I loaded up all my "meals" in my special little cooler that was a gift from my son and his wife, months ago when I had no idea exactly how helpful it would be. Anyway, I was ready to go, had my cottage cheese, some yogurt, two containers of 50 Gram Slam and all the utensils I needed.

I drank my 50 Gram Slam 1/2 cup first. That always goes down easy and gives me that yummy feeling of satisfaction. In an hour, though, it was time for lunch, so I told my co-worker that I needed to eat my 1/2 cup of cottage cheese, that it wouldn't take me long, but I couldn't rush it. Well I guess sitting down back there for longer than five minutes was really getting to me and I ate it way too fast for comfort, and I mean that, because within a few minutes, I felt like there was a softball sitting inside my chest and I started mildly sweating. It took over an hour for that feeling to go away, and I vowed NEVER to rush my food again!

Today I decided to move on, since I was obviously tolerating the refried beans, cottage cheese, and stuff, so I tried tuna for lunch. Now, I really love tuna, even just plain the way I needed to eat it, with a little fat free mayo, which I finally found at King Soopers, but 1/2 cup of it? Yeesh! I decided today that from now on, lunch will consist of 1/4 cup of tuna and 1/4 cup of something much more palateable to "wash the tuna" down. But hey, it's all a learning experience, right?

I also found another great, and tasty way, to get in some protein. Jello has some amazing sugar and fat free puddings. My favorite is Pistachio. Today I made a box of instant and then mixed a full scoop of protein powder in with it. I bought vanilla, since they didn't have the tasteless kind at the store when I went, and it was TASTY! I'm still trying to get the tuna taste out of my mouth, though, so definitely cutting that next time.

So far I'm not having any difficulty fitting in my proteins. That's the good news. The bad news is that I don't really feel like I'm losing weight, I mean, I don't feel like it's going to fall off left and right, as I do expect two pounds a week, and had that nice 12 pound jump start, but I guess I'm so in tune to everything now, I just wonder when it's going to be automatic. When I don't have to put so much thought into what I'm going to eat everyday. When I can have a smoothie for breakfast, with my protein powder, some fruit and milk, when I can actually feel like I can participate with society again. I know, give it a rest, Carol, it's only been ten days! hehehehe I know I always have high expectations of myself, so I really need to just keep at it, and remember that everything I do will show...it just will.